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I'm an elder now and finally, finally, coming home to myself. After a lifetime of twisting and bending and shape-shifting to try and stay safe and be liked, I realize that the person that I've been looking for has been me all along. It's interesting to notice that my own path during elderhood so far has included much isolation and alone time. I think that was the only way, for me, to finally begin to hear my own voice in the midst of all the others. There has been much sadness that I'm feeling and hearing from within.... And I'm trying to give it all the space and time that it needs. I think there is a lifetime of grief to be heard. I can feel there is much underneath that grief, but first I must honor the grief and sadness. I am more than that, and I must have the courage to go through that first, to bear witness to the tears, the losses.... To embrace the dark. It is part of me, an important part. It allows me to bear witness to the dark in others, and to offer silent companionship and understanding. What I have tried to judge and hide... turns out to be one of my greatest treasures.

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I am a work in progress

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